theres a mystery to love in christ

apparently i am gay. i found this out when a female approached me because she had heard I'm lesbian. after the initial shock, i tried to politely inform her that i was not in fact lesbian, and i that i was not interested in a relationship. she quickly apologized and then left. not long after another female approached me. she was new to post and needed a ride somewhere. i agreed, having no problem since we were going to the same place anyway. at first the ride was quiet. i wasn't sure what to talk about, i didn't really know her that well, and she seemed timid. i tried to break the ice with a goofy comment, and it was like i had let the dogs out. she began to ask me questions. i figured she was trying to get to know me so i engaged. i was surprised by the amount of questions she was able to fit in to our 5 minute ride to the barracks. as i pulled into the parking lot and put the car in park, she got real quiet. it kind of took me off guard so i awkwardly sat silently in the car waiting for her to get out. then she began to talk again. she told me that she had been warned about me, that i was basically a tattle tale, sensitive, and no fun to be around. all of the questions she had asked began to make sense now. a couple days later after having the time to think things through, get over the anger i felt that the very people i work and live with and are supposed to have my back apparently talk about me behind my back, i brought it up in conversation with an brother in Christ, very wise, retired military, and a local. as we talked it through he told me that i shouldn't be surprised that people would spread rumors about me, talk about me and try to bring me down to their level. i will have to admit that at first i was kind of angry about this. he went on to compare my situation to Jesus. Jesus was perfect, sinless, yet the very people who had followed him and praised him crucified him. they spread rumors about him, taunted him. they turned their backs on him. now if people could do that to someone who knew no sin, had done nothing wrong, why should i put it past them to do the same to me. i am a sinner, i have done wrong, made mistakes, and said the wrong thing at the wrong time. he told me that as Christians we are different. I'm different. because i don't like to do what they do and i don't hang out with them. they don't understand me, so they spread rumors. and then pick my brain to see how i will respond. and the truth behind that was so encouraging. it was peaceful. the anger i had felt, was no longer. as a christian i am called to love my enemies, just as Jesus did. i am to pray for them, love them, even when they wrong me. and i have to admit they are totally confused. they know i found out that they spread the rumors, yet i still talk to them, smile and engage them in conversation occasionally. they don't understand why i don't date, drink, or smoke. they don't understand why i would prefer to hang out with people 40 years my elder over them. but what i have come to realize is that they don't understand the love of Christ. the love Christ does not know color, race, ethnicity, sex, or age. Christ loves each and every one of us. whether we are gay or straight, black or white, male or female, American or Pakistani. Christ loves each and every one of us. and we are to do the same. we are not to judge someone because they are gay, they murdered somebody, or they praise a different god. for each of us has a sin of our own. we lust, idolize celebrities, we are gluttonous with food, we are gluttonous with the Internet and electronics, at one point we have spread gossip, and we have gotten angry and hurt somebody. just because somebody else's sin is different doesn't mean its worse. sin is sin. we all do it. I DO IT. as Christians we are called to love the Lord our God with all our hearts, all our minds, all our souls, and all our strength. and to love our neighbor as we love ourselves (Mark 12:30-31). we do not have to tolerate their sin, we do not have to accept their sin. but we do have to love them as Christ loves us. and show them grace, as Christ continuously shows us grace for our sins. we can love them without tolerating or accepting their sin. do not be afraid to be different. i do not smoke, i do not drink, I'm single, I'm a virgin, i dress conservatively, i am not gay or bisexual, i talk to my mom every day and i hang out with people who accept me for who i am. BE Different. BE Yourself. BE Fearless - Psalm 27:1-3 
The lord is my light and salvation; whom shall i fear? The lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall i be afraid? When evildoers assail me to eat up my flesh, my adversaries and foes, it is they who stumble and fall. Though an army encamp against me my heart shall not fear, though war arise against me, yet i will be confident.